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Gosh I haven been updating. So many things happened.
First and foremost! …. I got into Mass Communications!! WHEEEEE! After going for those goddamn interview and written test, I FINALLY got in. im one of those 200 peeps out of 1000 peeps applying that got in! Can you fucking believe that? I mean, I thought I did okay for e interview. Just okay but did try my best nevertheless. The interviewers must then see something in me, I believe. WOOTUSH! *grin*
But then, its at Ngee Ann Poly. and because of the extremely LOOOOONG distance, my parents don’t seem to be giving me 100% full support. I think my mum’s beginning to get me. But my dad kept persisting that I shld reconsider. And that sucks. Ask all my friends and they’ll tell you that this course is THE course ive been dying to get in. That one course I have the utmost passion in. And knowing that your parents still do not give you the green light, just… hurts.
Honestly, the distance factor does get to me sometimes. I mean, im living in tampines and my school is all da way in clementi. But then, if you want something, u bloody hell make sure that u sacrifice for it. You make sure you focus and have ZERO regrets. Although the nearest poly is TP (obviously) the CMM people still have not reply anything to me. Thus I doubt I actually get in. and trust me, I hope I do not get in because that would mean decisions!! AGAAIN. Hell no. Please. HEHE. Im terribly BAD at making decisions but right now, im pretty certain that Mass communications is where I wanna be in. Sure no matter what course ull be in, you’ll definitely learn something, but put it this way, I CANNOT be stuck in school for e next three years doink logistics, ..or something related to tourism and be stuck in a service industry later on in life, realizing that I don’t really lyke working with ppl right now, since ive had experienced in my job. Or doing probability all over again. That’s in business studies. EWW. But I CAN imagine myself doing advertising, journalism, radio, broadcasting, social psychology, public relations.. everyday for that 3 years. I just CAN. Don’t ask why. And it’s the course where u are just forced to grow up because ull be dealing with real-life situations. Especially in social psychology where u learn not to judge people just by the way the look. And this, can be apply in our real live as well. Right this moment, im actually willing to go to and fro frm Tampines to clementi lyk everyday. If this is what im meant to do, just bring it. Give it to me, baby!! WHEEEEE! Lol. Hurhur. Hopefully my dad will understand this. And even my uncle. I don’t know why he kept giving me that sneer. That condescending tone. As if im not good enough. Fuck him. I’ll show you, dammit. I’ll show you that im good enough for this course. That I followed my dream and one day, it’ll all be worthwhile. I will do my fucking best. And that best, is a million times better that what you think. What is wrong with people this days? What, cant you at least be happy that im actually going to be doing something that I want. YES. I. I dowan to be doing IT, sciences, law, design, hospitality, business, …NO!. I want to be studying media studies, dammit. MEDIA. Arrrgh. Freaking fools! *ends*