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ive been wanting to cry for a bloody long time. but i just cant do it anymore. or perhaps, ive forgotten the simplicity of having tears in my eyes. i feel emotionless. and i just frigging hate it. i dun even laugh as much as i used to! where's the optimism grrl! *sigh* right this moment, i just dont feel good abt myself alright? nothing happened. its just one of those i-hate-e-world-and-everyone-innit days. pffft. get a grip! Its not lyke crying makes me happy or shite lyke that. NO. it just means im healthy u know what i mean? im having contact with my emotions. and thats a good thing. i caught a movie jus now. and it was fucken sad. and heartwrenching. the real me would have shedded 50 thousand tears. but NO. all i did was stare at the screen. i felt nothing. i felt empty. and u know how fucken sad and irritating that is! GOD!