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Everything is so depressing. I've become way more critical now than i ever did before. My mind just never want to take a holiday. Its so goddamn frustrating. For the past two weeks, I've yet to get enough sleep to last me for the whole day. It was hell at its best. School's workload's really getting to me. I've been taking cabs to school like I'm this rich bastard. Like why the hell am i spending money unnecessarily like these?! I could've just make that extra effort to wake up early, hence no need for cabs.
The real truth is I've tried. But I seriously can't. My body hurts too much. I get like cramps all over and I think my panic attacks are starting again. I'm fricken worried all the time! I think ive lost my motivation. And newsflash, its only year one!
But thank you debb, noor, hana, gerald, and megan for making me laugh so hard every single day. Without you guys, my poly life would be a living nightmare. Screw those lecturers, interesting modules or what have you because really, without you people, all that means nothing. You guys are my rock.
I don't mean I hate school entirely though. I'm just tired. Tomorrow something good may happen and I'll become all cheery again. Its just right this moment; it hurts terribly.